Moving forward....

The time is now.

I feel as though up until this point I have been in limbo. Since my sister's passing I have been waiting. Waiting for days, waiting for things to happen, waiting for signs, answers, clues. I don't know that I have been given all that I have been searching for, but I know that now is the time for me to start a new journey. This year is going to be a whirlwind of change. I know that the 3-day walk is going to change me. I hope to be able to change my eating and exercise habits in the process. I am looking forward to the emotionally and mental changes the walk will bring. Not one person whom I have spoken to about the walk has said that it was anything less than life-altering. Proudly, I am now for the first time in my life a real college student. I put off taking any sort of courses for years for fear that they would be wasted on me. I never could decide what I wanted to do when I grew up. I am now enrolled, and working on becoming a medical transcriptionist. I will be able to find a job where I can work from home on my own schedule. I am just not cut out for a 9 to 5. I don't do mornings, and I am becoming increasingly cynical towards society. To be blunt I am sick and tired of the stupidity of the public. I do not understand how people make it through life when they cannot understand the most simple of concepts. Also, in the next year or two John and I will be thinking about expanding our family, and this position will make raising children the way I always hoped for a reality. I am beginning to feel like an adult, and not just a child playing dress up. I have known for a long time that I am much more mature than most people my age, but I am only now accepting this, and allowing myself to embrace it. I have fought it for far too long, and was not comfortable in my own skin because of it. I am ready to start leaving my mark on this world. The time to start moving forward is right now. I leave you with this clip from the 3-day. I only hope it inspires YOU to leave your mark, in whatever way that may be.

No good very bad day

This is how we started our day.

Monkey meet the street. Thank God he ALWAYS wears jeans long sleeves and his helmet, or this could have ended in a trip to the ER. As it is, he is only suffering from a mildly bruised butt, and a VERY VERY bruised pride. Poor Monkey, he loves his motorcycle. It is/was his pride and joy. One of the few things in his life that he bought just for himself, for his own enjoyment. I am just so thankful that the only thing hurt was the bike. It can be fixed, a broken Monkey is much harder to repair.

Thank you all for your thoughts today, it made an incredibly hellacious day a little bit easier to swallow knowing that we were all on the same page. Hugs to you all!

Happy Birthday Angie.

Happy Birthday Angie.

I love you.

I miss your smile.

I miss your laugh.

I miss your way with words.

I miss your grace.

I miss your style.

I miss your hope,

your faith,

your love.

I miss the joy you brought to everyone who came into your life.

I miss the way you used to hiss at things you didn't like.

I miss your red pen moments.

I miss you dumping wet barbies on my bed in the mornings.

I miss watching movies with you.

I miss your gumbo, and your enchiladas.

I miss you singing silent night to me on Christmas eve.

I miss the great herbal remedies you had for me at a moments notice.

I miss your long beautiful hair that always smelled like flowers.

I miss your hugs.

I miss the love of my sister.

I miss every single thing about you, great or small.

I miss you.

It's time to hide

I am sorry I have sort of disappeared, and I apologize in advance for the coming week. You see my sweet sister Angela's 34th birthday will have been on the 18th next week, and I am finding it a bit difficult to face. I am still walking, and as soon as I am feeling a bit better I will definitely be back. I just need to go to ground (in the words of my own sister) until this passes. I love you all and will be back soon.

Not too much to say...

Sunday's walk was fairly uneventful. Probably just as nice as Saturday's though. It's amazing what some beautiful nature can do for the mood. I am about 90% sure that the blisters on my heels are on the mend finally. They don't seem to have gotten any bigger, and still aren't causing me any pain. I am a bit disappointed in my digital camera though, as it seems to have decided that it doesn't like sim cards and keeps having issues with them no matter what kind i try to use in it. I wanted to take some pictures on my walk by the celery fields, but my sassy little camera decided that it just wasn't going to happen. I am not a morning person, but I am going to have to do my 3 miles before work tomorrow as I am going to be a lipstick model tomorrow evening after work! lol! One of the ladies at the church is a Mary Kay rep, and she asked me and my good friends Michele and Dee to help her out. She said I would get some make-up out of the deal, and I think it will be a lot of fun, so why the heck not!!! Hopefully it won't be too dark in the morning, it makes me so nervous walking alone in the dark. I'm such a scaredy-cat!